Written by: Juana
Story summary: Benís secret is about to be told. But many otherís are still being kept. Felicity struggles with how to deal with the knowledge she gains about Benís situation and his love for her. Noel is down for the momentÖbut definitely not out.
Disclaimer: I do not own themÖ.I get it! They will never be mineÖnot all of them anyway. Some of them are mineÖ..Lyssa, TateÖetc.
FELICITY: (Voice over to Sally) Dear SallyÖ.open mouth, insert foot. Pretty much the motto I am doomed to live by. Well the most awful thing happened to me. Noel found out the truth about me and Ben and in a reallyÖ.reallyÖ.bad way.
INT: DEAN AND DELUCA: KITCHEN
FELICITY AND BEN ARE IN THE KITCHEN. NOEL HAS JUST WALKED THROUGH THE DOOR AND HEARD THE LAST PART OF THEIR CONVERSATION.
NOEL: Well FelicityÖ.explanation?
FELICITY: (shocked) Noel? I didnít know that you were standing there.
NOEL: Okay that much is obviousÖitís the rest Iím a little hazy on. Did I just hear you say that you and Ben made love?
FELICITY: OhÖyou heard that?
NOEL: Uh huhÖ.Yes. Whatís going on here Felicity?
BEN: Maybe I should get going.
NOEL: Oh no you are not going anywhere until I get some answers.
BEN: This is between you and FelicityÖ.this doesnít concern me.
NOEL: You know Ben your attitude is starting to wear a little thin. If what Felicity just said is trueÖ.it should concern you a great deal.
FELICITY: (hurt by Benís words) Let him go NoelÖ.he doesnít need to stay around for this.
BEN: Felicity itís not that I donít want to stayÖ.I just donít know how my being here would help.
NOEL: Arenít you curious why she lied about sleeping with you?
NOEL: Thatís right. Apparently your deflowering of† Felicity wasnít something she wanted me to know aboutÖto the point of lying.
BEN: OkayÖ.now Iím confused.
NOEL: Well it goes like this. I asked Felicity if you and she had been fully intimate and she said no. Emphatically no.
BEN: (to Felicity) Is that true?
FELICITY: Itís complicated Ben. Yes I lied to Noel about sleeping with you.
FELICITY: I donít know exactly. I guess I was just trying to keep from hurting him.
NOEL: OrÖ.wait. Hereís another scenario. Maybe you just wanted to keep your options open.
FELICITY: NoelÖitís not like that at all. Donít go putting words into my mouth.
BEN: Well then what was the reason? Now Iím curious too.
FELICITY: I wonít have you two ganging up on me. I had my reasons.
NOEL: Well I feel all better now. Do you honestly think that explanation is going to cut it Felicity?
FELICITY: I donít know what you want me to say Noel.
NOEL: How about the truth?
FELICITY: (Voice over to Sally) The truth? I wasnít really sure what that was. I didnít know how to explain my actions to either one of them. Why did I sleep with Ben? It all seemed so clear to me in Palo AltoÖ.but back here in New York it suddenly seemed so unexplainable. Besides did I really owe Noel an explanation? He seemed to think so.
NOEL: Iím waiting.
BEN: You know what? I donít want to do this. I really donít want to do this. Iím leaving.
FELICITY: Ben? Are you mad at me?
BEN: Iím frustrated Felicity. I guess Iím a little hurt that you would cover up what happened with usÖ.butÖ.well things are different for us now so maybe itís for the best.
FELICITY: Iím sorry Ben. I hope you understand that Iím glad it happened.
FELICITY: Not now Noel. (turns back to Ben) I really mean that. I know I was a little crazy earlierÖ.but I need you to know that I donít regret itÖ.not for one second.
NOEL: Yoo hoo over here. Boyfriend standing in the room.
FELICITY: Please NoelÖ.just give us a minute.
NOEL: Okay. I donít have to take this. You donít seem to care one iota what your doing to me. Itís all about Ben.
NOEL WALKS OUT OF DEAN AND DELUCAíS KITCHEN ANGRY.
BEN: Maybe you should go after him.
FELICITY: (looking at Ben) Maybe. Ben are we okay?
BEN: (looks intently at Felicity) YeahÖ.were cool. Iím sorry about the way Iíve beenÖ.I want you to know that.
FELICITY: Can we work things out?
BEN: (hesitates) UmÖÖGod this is so hardÖ..No. Things can never be the way they were.
FELICITY: (starts to cry) I donít understand.
BEN TAKES FELICITY INTO HIS ARMS AND LETS HER CRY INTO HIS CHEST. AS SHE IS STANDING SO CLOSE TO HIM HE STARTS TO RUN HIS FINGERS THROUGH HER HAIR. SLOWLY SHE LOOKS UP AT HIM AND SEES THAT HE IS LOOKING DOWN AT HER.
FELICITY: (Voice over to Sally) So there we were standing in each others arms. Neither one of us saying a thing but yet saying so much. I knew in that moment Sally that he still loved me. But then as all moments do it ended and he stepped out of my life.
BEN: I have to go Felicity.
FELICITY: Please Ben. Not yetÖ.just hold me.
BEN: I canít FelicityÖ.Iím not strong enough. Iím afraid if I stay right nowÖ..Iíll never want to goÖ.and there are other concerns here besides myself.
FELICITY: You keep doing that Ben. Alluding to other concerns and responsibilitiesÖ.what are you trying to tell me?
BEN: NothingÖ.please just understand that I have to leave.
FELICITY: Ben for the past few months we have told each other everything. We trust each otherÖ.remember?
BEN: I canít FelicityÖ.not this time. Iím sorry.
BEN WALKS OUT OF THE KITCHEN AT DEAN AND DELUCA.
NEXT MORNING: FELICITYíS ROOM. THERE IS A KNOCK AT THE DOOR. MEGAN IS SITTING RIGHT BY THE DOOR BUT IGNORES IT.
FELICITY: (typing on her computer) Are you going to get that?
MEGAN: (clearly not busy) Iím busy.
FELICITY: I donít think sitting on your assÖ.fanning your nails constitutes as busy.
MEGAN: Somebody certaintly is grumpy today. Whatís the matter not getting any?
FELICITY: (disgusted. Gets up to answer door) If this is for you Iím telling them you're not here.
MEAGEN: Dose of reality? My friends never come here.
FELICITY: Good point. (opens door) Hey Julie. Whatís up?
JULIE: Do you have a minute Felicity?
FELICITY: Sure come in.
JULIE: (sees Meagen) I need to talk to you in private.
MEGAN: PleaseÖ.there is no lame ass secret that you have that could possibly interest me.
FELICITY: (to Julie) Iíll get my coat and we can go somewhere else.
FELICITY GRABS HER COAT AND EXITS THE DORM WITH JULIE.
CUT TO DEAN AND DELUCA. BEN IS WORKING WHEN JULIE AND FELICITY WALK IN.
JULIE: (sees Ben) Maybe this isnít the best place.
FELICITY: Why? Whatís wrong? (looks over and sees Ben) Is it Ben? Because really Iím fine. I can be in the same room with him.
JULIE: FelicityÖ..what I have to tell you is about Ben.† It will undoubtedly upset you. I think that we should leave.
BEN WALKS OVER TO FELICITY AND JULIE AS THEY GET UP TO LEAVE.
JULIE: Hey. We were just leaving.
BEN: (looking at Felicity) I just wanted to make sure you were okay.
FELICITY: Iím fine. Just having some coffee with Julie. I didnít know you were working.
BEN: I wasnít. I traded with Darlene so she could take her boyfriend out for his birthday.
THERE IS AN AKWARD SILENCE BETWEEN THE THREE.
BEN: Okay. Well I should probably get back to work. Take care.
FELICITY: Yeah. You too.
JULIE: We should go.
FELICITY: I canít go now Julie. I just told him I was fine.
JULIE: Felicity, Iím pretty sure this is not where you want to hear this.
FELICITY: Iím a big girl Julie. Whatever it is I can take it.
JULIE: Okay. Donít say I didnít warn you though.
FELICITY: Let it be noted that I was duly warned and chose to ignore that warning.
JULIE: I heard something today.
FELICITY: About Ben?
JULIE: Itís indirectly about him.
FELICITY: Indirectly? So then itís about someone Ben knows?
JULIE: Yes. Itís about Lyssa.
FELICITY: Oh. Frankly JulieÖ.Iíve had about all the news about Lyssa that I can take.
JULIE: Sheís pregnant.
FELICITY: Excuse me?
JULIE: Itís Benís baby.
FELICITY SITS THERE IN UTTER SHOCK.
JULIE: Felicity? Are you going to say anything ?
FELICITY: (looks over at Ben) Itís Benís?
FELICITY: Does he know?Ö.what am I sayingÖ.of course he knows. It all makes sense now. Thatís why he got back together with Lyssa.
JULIE: I donít know. Maybe.
FELICITY: God I feel sick.
JULIE: You look a little pale. Maybe we should go.
FELICITY: Yeah. I think thatís a good idea.
FELICITY AND JULIE WALK OUT OF DEAN AND DELUCA.
NEXT SCENE: LATER THAT DAY- BENíS APARTMENT. THE BUZZER RINGS.
FELICITY: BenÖitís FelicityÖ.buzz me up.
BEN: Felicity? What are you doing here?
FELICITY: Itís freezing out BenÖ.buzz me up.
BUZZER GOES OFF.
NEXT SCENE: BEN ANSWERS THE DOOR TO FELICITY.
BEN: This is a bad idea Felicity. I think that you should go.
FELICITY: Not until we talk. We can use your room.
BEN: Lyssa is asleep in there. This is a bad time.
FELICITY: Then grab your coat and come with me.
BEN: All right you got me I lied. Lyssa isnít here. But Felicity she could show up any minute. Sheís like that.
FELICITY: Ben I came here to have a conversation with you and itís going to happen one way or the otherÖ..so either let me in or we can talk right here.
BEN: Fine. Come in. I donít remember you being this pushy.
FELICITY: (sits down on couch) Iíll come straight to the point. I know that Lyssa is pregnant.
BEN: What? How?
FELICITY: That doesnít matter. The important thing is that I do.
BEN: I wanted to tell you Felicity. But frankly I didnít know how you would react.
FELICITY: You should have given me the chance to show you. I can be very supportive Ben.
BEN: I appreciate that Felicity. Really. But Lyssa wouldnítÖ. believe me. She wants you as far away from me as is humanly possible.
FELICITY: Youíve given Lyssa a lot of power here Ben.
BEN: She pretty much holds all the high cards.
FELICITY: You mean the baby?
FELICITY: Do you love Lyssa?
BEN: (hesitates) No.
FELICITY: Then be with me Ben. We can work through this together.
BEN: FelicityÖ.thatís not gonna happen. Iíve made a commitment to Lyssa.
FELICITY: Based on the fact that sheís pregnant. Ben are you willing to give up everything we developed for that?
FELICITY: How can you say that? I see the way you look at me Ben. I know that you love me.
BEN: FelicityÖ.you are only making the inevitable harder for the both of us. Canít you see that?
FELICITY: No. I donít think youíve thought this through Ben.
BEN: Yes I have. Ever since I found outÖ.Iíve done nothing but think. Donít you think for one minute I didnít stay up nights thinking about you and what losing you would do to me.
FELICITY: Then why? Ben you can have it both ways.
BEN: No I canít. Donít you see. I had a decision that I had to make and I did. It wasnít easy for me but Felicity it was the only choice. You have to believe that.
FELICITY: BenÖcouples do it all the time. I understand that you want to be a father to this baby and I totally respect you for thatÖbut donít do it at the cost of us.
BEN: Donít Felicity. Donít make me out to be the villain here. I have a responsibility to my unborn child and I intend to do right by it.
FELICITY: (Voice over recording to Sally) So now I understood what I was up againstÖ.a baby. Lyssaís baby. Sally how am I suppose to convince Ben that we belong together when he feels that the only way to be a father is to be with Lyssa?
NEXT SCENE: FELICITY AND BEN ARE WORKING AT DEAN AND DELUCA. LYSSA IS SITTING AT A TABLE WITH HER GIRLFRIEND. BEN WALKS BY AND ACCIDENTALLY BRUSHES UP AGAINST FELICITY. HE SAYS HE IS SORRY AND SHYLY SMILES. LYSSA SITS WATCHING THE WHOLE INTERACTION.
MAGGIE: Lyssa are you listening?
LYSSA: Huh? What? Iím sorry I was just thinking.
MAGGIE: Thatís okay. I asked if you had told Ben about the miscarriage yet?
LYSSA: (angry) No. I told youÖ.Iíll tell him when Iím ready.
MAGGIE: Lyssa he deserves to know. He has been great to you. Most guys would have headed for the hills but he stuck around.
LYSSA: I have an idea MaggieÖ.letís pretend that this is none of your business.
MAGGIE: You donít have to be such a snot. I was just trying to be a friend.
LYSSA: Well the best thing you can do for meÖ.friendÖis to keep your mouth shut. Iíll tell Ben when I feel he needs to know.
SALLY: (Voice over recording to Felicity) Dear Felicity, a baby is a pretty major thing and I give Ben credit for being man enough to do the morally right thing. I know you're hurting but try and understand that what Ben is going through is life altering. I know that you love each other and I believe in my heart that love always finds a way around the obstacles that get placed in the path of relationships. Be patient and let Ben do what he feels is the right thing. It may go your way and it may notÖbut regardless you have the privilege of being able to say that the man you love is a keeper. Maybe not yours to keepÖ.but definitely a keeper.